Midnight ramblings, except it’s not midnight because I have trouble staying up that late these days! Ha.
So life’s been a bit of a roller coaster these past few months, but lately it has seemed to have settled into a good place. Feeling incredibly blessed and very grateful.
A couple of weeks or so ago I was feeling pretty incompetent at my job, like I just kept making random mistakes. Oh man what a shit feeling incompetence is - it just knocks you right down. I just kept working harder cause what else is there to do? Just gotta try and be better. Anyway, the other day my boss gave me feedback that they’re happy with me and that I’m doing a good job and then I was just ecstatic. Haha. It’s like a giant energy boost! It sounds pretty lame that one good feedback made me feel tons better and more confident, and I didn’t think I was a fan of being complemented anyway, but to get acknowledgement for something I was really working for - fuck yeah I’ll take that!
When I first started I found most tasks ridiculously mundane but something clicked recently and it’s like a mix of being invested in this job and also understanding the purpose and the value of whatever the task is that now I don’t find it boring at all. I’ve really been enjoying it.
So I’ve been feeling good that things are working out in those ways and also very lucky at how this all started anyway - I mean, this was just supposed to be a one month job as a temp but for some reason my boss made an effort to get me hired into a permanent position even though I didn’t really know what I was doing! How does that happen?
And to top that off I have wonderful people in my life that I get to call friends both in this town and hundreds of miles away in another country! What?
Just… awesome. And I’m so very appreciative.
I don’t know why I’m being cheesy haha but it’s just an overwhelming feeling of being incredibly blessed and very grateful and I wanted to share.
Wishing good vibes and great joy for all >:D<
